I can’t lie to you Vienna. Not anymore. I want to put them aside. For you I want to change everything but the disgust I feel towards certain people is hard to ignore. Even more so when people taunt me. The blood that runs through you is irrelevant to me because I care for you but with everyone else it’s not the same.
But you have to understand that I’m no different than the others like me. I’m still a muggleborn, like them. I’m nothing special.
I’ve always been charming I just had trouble with putting aside my issues.
So… have you? Put your issues aside? For good?
Although I am fond of the castle covered in snow I was thinking more along the lines of seeing a smile on your face or making you laugh.
…When did you become charming?
I’ve seen much more beautiful things.
….Oh.. is that right? Like what? A sunrise? A sunset? Hogwarts when it’s covered in snow?
I’ll do anything. Let’s just take everything slowly. We can learn how to be friends again. I feel like I can trust you. Despite everything you’ve never done anything to change that. It’s always hurt me to call you that. Growing up I never expected this. I never thought something I’d learn to hate would also happen to be someone I once felt so close to. I’m willing to try. Maybe I just don’t have good enough friends.
Yes… let’s take things slow. We can build things up from here. We’ll learn how to become friends again, but for now.. let’s just be us. You and I. We aren’t friends.. but we have something. A connection. So maybe something can come from it.
If they can’t accept you, in any way that you are, they aren’t true mates. You need people close to you that will accept who you are, no matter who you choose to spend your time with or how you decide to act.
I get it. I haven’t done anything to earn your trust but I want to. It’s not you that’s unworthy, Vienna, it’s me. I don’t deserve someone as good and beautiful as you. Everyone is right about me. I’m nothing but a jerk but I want to change. I want to be good for you.
Well, you can work for it. Trust breeds trust. You have to give it to get it. And.. you can’t think like that. You aren’t what everyone else thinks you are… that’s just how you portray yourself to be. I know that if you were how everyone else thought you were, we wouldn’t be having this conversation right now. You would be calling me a filthy mudblood and telling me to never speak to you again. But you aren’t. You just need to be who you want to be. Not who your ‘friends’ want you to be.
Vienna…I shouldn’t have said that. I don’t believe that. Everything is so complicated right now. I don’t know how to tell my friends that I suddenly changed my mind because I fell…because I care for you. We used to be so close and I let the world change that. I let it change me. I want you. I want to be allowed to want you.
How do I know that you won’t just go parading around about how pathetic it is that a mudblood fancies you? I don’t know if I can trust you just yet. Sometimes you make me want to hex you into the next year.. and the next second I just want to kiss you. Sometimes I can’t stand you, and then I feel the complete opposite. Everything is so complicated with you. With us.
Why isn’t is possible?
You just… can’t. I’m a muggleborn. I don’t have pure blood. You can’t want me. I’m not worthy.